|by Jennifer McLean: http://justaddwatersilly.blogspot.com|
Holidays, expectations, wanting perfection and procrastination. All get in the way of my life as I should be living it.
...and then I met a blogger, clear across the continent, in British Columbia, Canada, in a town with a beautiful name: Nanaimo. I should get the history straight of how we met, as some day it might be important. I do know that I found a blog posting of hers (on her site: http://justaddwatersilly.blogspot.com) and won a bookmark that she lovingly drew and then laminated. Delicious blog candy, that's in the mail to me.
We struck up a conversation online, and she's helped me in ways that she doesn't know yet -- at least not until she reads this posting. I hope I helped her a bit too. We both have insecurities about how "good" our craft is ... our self-judgment is harsh!
A mosaic Jenn created using Flickr images and a Mosaic Maker helped me formulate my resolutions or at least my goals for 2012. It's here, above left.
My resolution for 2012? "To be." I plan on creating some work, challenging my life on being: me!, loved, happy, honest, kind, amazing, unique, creative, believable, healthy, inspiring and grateful. (Notice there are 12 "be" words? Perhaps I'll have monthly posts and challenges, to be ....)
To do that, I need to: dream, have patience, have courage, create, live, laugh, pray, believe, have passion, breathe, wish, hope, and love.
A first step: Jenn said it best. Like her, I'll be "...'thinning the herd' ... of superfluous things that are cluttering my time. I have to concentrate on things that are important ... making the life I want to live." "Declutter the mind and focus one's feelings..."
I have to say, I was crushed not to have been chosen. Not just that I was rejected, but also the way in which it was done. Without so much as a personal e-mail to say, "sorry ol' chap, try again later," the new team was announced with fanfare. Those who made the team got personal telephone calls from Nikki herself; those who didn't were left without so much as a group hug on a Facebook post. Lots of jolly blogs screaming joy of having made it ... blogs I joined to see what I could have done better ... sadness, feeling inadequate and untalented.
Then I read a quote on Jenn's blog today ... One she quoted from another's writing. It speaks volumes to me:
"Here’s another important truth for me: Always sign up for adventure. Always say yes. Even if it’s terrifying to the core of your soul. That means you’re doing the right thing. You’re learning and growing and shoving yourself right out of your comfort zone. Unless… well, unless there are guns and heists. In that case… stay in your comfort zone and away from guns. Also… before you forge forward. Have breakfast (preferably with chocolate) and pack cookies." ~ from Joy the Baker
In this era of impersonality, Twitter/Tweets, blogs and e-mails substituting for the real thing -- a look in the eye, a gentle hug when a day is sad -- please let's remember that we're real humans out here ... with beating hearts, caring souls, with dreams and aspirations.
P.S., Nikki, I still love you. I'll still continue to buy and use your paper. I know you're busy (CHA). But just remember this: it's a sign of character in how you treat those who hope to walk in your footsteps, or along side of you. And as another blogger, Abby, writes: "The strength of character can be written in at any time."
By the way, Abby also wrote the headline to this post, well before I could. I lifted it from her blog, and give her credit here.